I had a very vivid dream early this morning. I gave birth to a baby girl. At home. By myself. In my bathroom. 🙂 I clearly remember the details. I remember thinking how pleased Travis would be to come home and find the baby in bed with me. But then, I remembered I already had a baby, only two months old and thinking “I didn’t think I would have this one so soon. How will I manage to care for both?” But that thought soon left my head and my focus was on THIS baby and cleaning up after the birth. Basically, focusing on the task in front of me. I was sitting there giving birth and looking at the mess in the tub in front of me. Like I had labored in the tub but got out to give birth and the water in the tub was dirty. It didn’t bother me during the process but after baby was born, I thought “I need to clean that up, what a mess!” I put the baby down and started on that task. When I turned around to check on baby, there was a little girl there with the baby, maybe 4-5 years old. She had the baby dressed and sitting up!
No-I don’t think this dream was literal. I’m past the baby phase in my natural life. In the spirit, however, babies represent new things God “births” in us. I have no doubt this was from God, and I’ll tell you why. This past week, especially, I have been feeling very overwhelmed with everything I have going on. I’ve been having a hard time keeping up with my schedule. I have a long list of “to-dos” and I felt as if I was drowning. Even though most, if not all, of my list were things I’m passionate about and enjoy doing. I began to pray and ask God if there was something I need to give up. I was thinking about the tasks that seemed the most overwhelming to me, and it hit me. My crafting business – Carlily. Even though I thoroughly enjoy the things I create, it has been taking up time and kind of robbing me of the joy of it. That’s a hard one for me to give up. It’s something that I’ve worked hard at. Even though it’s tiny, it’s “mine”. Well, that should’ve been my first clue…anytime I call something “mine”. Haha! I decided to put it on “hiatus” for a while. I haven’t even announced it yet. I just told Travis about my decision. The moment I made the decision in my heart, I felt a release. The follow-through might be a little hard. I love to create – especially for other people. Making something for someone else that brings them joy makes me happy. I know there will be a time in my life for this, it’s just not right now.
So, it’s no coincidence that I had that dream the night I made this decision. I think God has “birthed” something new in my life and I’m SO excited to follow His promptings and find out exactly what it might be!
I think I have said it before but, If you are so busy that you feel overwhelmed and disoriented, there very well may be something in your life that you need to let go of. Even if everything you are doing is “good” and part of your passions and giftings. We go through seasons in life and, if we are listening to our Heavenly Father, (that inner prompting and intuition) we will know what season we are in and what our purpose is for that season. Yeah – sometimes it’s hard and hurts a little bit to let go of some things but, it’s SO worth it!
Interpretations from my dream:
- God has birthed something new in my life as a result of my decision to lay down my own things and do what He is asking me to do well.
- God is speeding things up. I thought I would have a full gestation period in between births but that didn’t happen.
- Focus on what He puts in front of me and trust that He knows what need attention and what doesn’t. After I gave birth, my attention turned to cleaning up.
- I will be giving birth to things and handing them over to the next generation and teaching them how to nurture it but also, they will accomplish things much faster and easier than I could.
I originally drafted this post 9 days ago. Yesterday, the message at church was about handing over your “time, talents, and treasure” to God. SO good and timely! You can listen to the message on our website. http://www.thebridgechurch.tv